03 July 2020

It is a New Beginning

Assalamualaikum and good evening everyone!

It has been so long since I last wrote my last post. All my previous posts are about one person, the person that I love the most. How regret I am, losing him a few times when I had the chances. And I keep hoping that I could turn back the time so that I can make things right. But, we ain't living in fairytales right. We cannot change what happened in the past, but yeah we can change the present and future.

Since the last time I lost him, I met a few guys, get into a few relationships but after 4 years, my feelings remained the same. It is always him. Andddd here's the interesting part. After 4 years, he is finally mine again. Alhamdulillah. After all the heart breaks and pains, we are finally together again. It has been 7 years since the first time I met him, fell in love with him, but until this very moment I am still in love with him.

People will say that I am re-reading the old book that I already know the ending. But the thing is, there is no ending until you die. As you are still alive, the story will continue to write. So this is my new beginning. I never expected this to happen. But, I am grateful it happened. So I am going to write a few notes for my future self. So that I can go through this and have a happy ending.

Firstly, no matter how hard things get, please stay strong. Remember that is is harder to live without him. So, if there is any problem, talk to him. Do not talk to other people. Because communication is the key. You guys made it already, after so many years, you guys are finally together. Do not let this end like this. Stay strong and love him with all your might.

Secondly, pleaseeeeeeee save your freaking money Ain hahahaah remember your goal is to marry him so save your moneyyyyyyy!!! Do not put all the burden on him alone. It about the two of you, so you have to go through the hardships together. Save money first, shopping later. Know your priority Ain. Stay strong dearself.

Obviously there are going to be guys better than him, but remember there are also many girls better than you. But he still chooses you, no matter how much you have caused him pains, he still loves you. So ignore all guys. And focus only on him. Love him. Care for him.

And lastly, to the person I love the most, thank you for accepting me the way I am. Thank you for making me wanna be a better me. Thank you for everything. I really really love you. And I will make this work. I will love you till my last breath. Insya Allah, I will try to become a better person for you. Someone who cares for you, cook for you, love you. I wanna be yours forever. And till Jannah. I will always love you.

Thank you.